Wow quickest DTR of my life LOL

I take back what I said. Some family.

I’m not sure what it is, but lately I’ve just been having weird obsession for flowers. Last week I was up until 2am looking on etsy and pinterest for floral crown inspirations. I really want to wear a floral crown for prom as odd as that may sound and I’ll probably make my own. I hope it’s not overkill wearing both a corsage and a crown haha.  And if I ever do get married I’ll be sure to wear one for my wedding too. :) Though roses look the prettiest for crowns, I have this thing for calla lilies and baby’s breath flowers. They’re so simple and so delicate. 

Took this way back in November I think. Wasn’t until now that I realized how lucky I was to get such an amazing shot.

11:06

I know Wheaton is the safest and the best choice for me. But I absolutely loved the people at Grinnell. 

w-w-w-ho are y-y-y-ou again?

12:25

Latest go-to oufit

12:53

Tribal & floral print.

1:53

 “What is the gospel?” A simple question consisted of four simple words. For a Christian girl who has attended church since she could walk, this question should be relatively easy to answer. But imagine being put on the spot, having only so many minutes to answer such a seemingly simple question. I was asked this question for the first time two summers ago not by a non-Christian, but by my bible study counselor Jared.

Jared was infamous in our youth group for asking this question frequently, but it was not without good reason. Jared posed as ‘random high school student X’ who had no prior knowledge of God or the bible. With confidence, I stated my response, only to have my argument disassembled and countered. With every argument I had, Jared had a counter argument that, not only, perfectly tore down mine, but also raised newer, and more difficult questions— questions like “what is sin?” to “can God create a rock so big that even He can’t lift it?” As Bible study progressed, my confidence wore away. I soon realized that this supposedly “strong” foundation that I had built up over the past seventeen years of attending Sunday school and Friday youth group failed me. I knew the content of the Bible, but I was confronted by how little I knew of biblical theology and most of all, who God really is.

This question “what is the gospel?” did not shake my faith, but instead it got me thinking. I evaluated my walk with God, only to find that my spiritual growth had plateaued without me even knowing it.

My parents brought me to church ever since I was a kid and since then I have attended every type of ministry that my church offered. I was only in first grade when I accepted Christ as my personal savior. I was always the teacher’s pet in Sunday school and I knew all the popular worship songs by heart. However, I noticed that I never had a yearning to chase after God or learn more about His personality. All my life, Christianity was just simply a religion full of stories and proverbs to me.

Though I know a lot about God, I never learned to know God in an intimate way. Since that humiliating experience, I made it a goal to answer this question successfully to Jared before heading off to college. It’s not for self-satisfaction but rather to reassure myself that I know exactly what I believe and why. Jared wants to prepare us for when we go off to college. He warns us that we may not be blessed with a safe Christian environment in the future and may encounter this question from non-believer friends.

Gradually, through high school, I feel like God has revealed Himself to me. I have grown to be more discerning with friendships and situations that a typical high schooler may face. I now not only have a mind that knows facts about God and the Bible, but also a heart yearning to learn more about God’s personality and ethics. I want to know him like a friend, not just as some faraway king that people tell stories about.